YOU should.

Funny thing, the realizations I've had of late. I've some internal conversations that need posting - not yet, certainly not yet, but soon it'll be worth adding them. Perhaps one or two could go up now, I suppose... I'll have to wander inward and ask.

Why am I the one writing this? Overwhelming sensations, thoughts and dreams so strong that nothing can break through them, we are not drowning but bathing, drinking, wrapping ourselves in something so precious and pure that nothing can compare. No loss of Self. No confusion. No doubt. No hesitation. It takes all the distance and separation I have to pull back and write, words on a page seeming a poor second right now to simply waiting. Watching.

I slept. From around noon until just shortly after 7:00 pm, not all of it real sleep and a lot of it dream-laden but still, it's the first honest REST I've gotten in weeks now. Credit where credit is due, little one. Not perfect, I am still tired, we are still drained, but... better. 15 full-strength sleeping pills and I've been wide awake for 12+ hours. One night, culmination, and I find it within myself to hold to the dreams of that offering long enough to recover something of my own strength.

Silence, now... since I am not the only one who craves, who needs, even if none of our needs overlap.

We'll see what happens.

in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars