I'm feeling extremely frustrated. Courtesy of a morning full of fuck-ups, miscommunication, bad luck, worse timing, and so forth, it basically feels as if the universe took a dump on me starting damn near the moment I woke up... and it just keeps getting worse. The part that's really making it hard to deal with is that once again, I'm trying to back off and calm down and basically give Kadin (who is both the nearest target and the most likely source of what relief I could've found today) some breathing room. All that backing off has done from MY end of things is apparently give him an opportunity to arrange for an entire MONTH of the same unpleasantness that nearly hit earlier today. Oh, joy.

I'm feeling Hungry, and at the same time having a ridiculous set of physical food-type cravings. Tack on the upset stomach (and the fact that a headache makes it worse) to prevent me from either eating what few foods ARE available or getting royally drunk, and yeah, I'm already at the pacing stage.

Now the next bit of immediate shit: I'm apparently going completely over the wall emotionally. I'd expected to be able to have at least a few hours' relief and release today, but since email and all other f'ing forms of communication went haywire last night and have yet to resolve themselves, the parties in question have no way to get in touch with me and I've no way to get in touch with them. I'm hungry, I'm in extreme pain, I'm tired and frustrated and need to get laid...

...and instead? *twitch*

Instead I'm trying to get my headache and the stabbing pain in my side to a point where I can actually cope with them enough to play a card game or something.

I want:

Kipper snacks, pickles, red meat, potato chips, and red wine vinegar.

Access, unrestricted and useful access, to Kadin and Caleb.

Sharp objects.

Lack of all things noise-related other than those things which are immediately calming and pleasantly distracting.