This is a simply lovely video.

Torian... little one, how am I pushing you away? What can I do to keep you closer, to make you feel more a part of the chaotic hell that is my life this week? For that matter, why the fuck would you WANT to be part of it? Inter-pack drama, weirdness between Deborah and Randy, me being narcolepsy girl again, my parents constantly calling, and the migrane that's come to join the "Make Jax Miserable" party that the majority of my body parts are throwing. Whee.

But I AM still here, well, now that the internet is working again (We'd kinda lost it for a while) and if you give me a particular time, odds are good I'll manage to be online then if it is at all possible. *hugs* I miss you.