And at the same time, I think it would worry me more if it stopped hurting. At least this way I know I haven't forgotten, that I can still feel, that it was real, while it lasted. I don't think about it much any more; sometimes when the cravings are at their worst, yeah, and sometimes in the early morning when I can't sleep and I'm thinking a bit too much about the past, but that's it, usually. I'm a big girl, I can cope. *shrug*

Tonight's just one of those times, though. I crave... gods, I've been going mad the last few weeks with that Hunger, and unable to get a fix. And tonight, I started thinking, and just couldn't stop. Gods, I'm grateful for Torian right now. Without her I think I'd be in a lot worse of a state.