*you were warned*

*really, I mean it*

I'd planned to be online sooner.

The phone rang just as I sat down at the computer.

...kadin...

I came... what, three times? Two of them without even realizing I was about to. He... gods... he doesn't even realize what it is he gives me. He doesn't know how priceless, how perfect, he can be.

He is mine.

Without hesitation, without regret. Trusting, caring, loving.

He is so beautiful...

I would give up the world, for him. Anything, for him. Not because he 'deserves' it, not because I love him (although I do).

But because he is mine.

He belongs to me more completely than anyone. He belongs to me, he is mine, and there is a purity to it that defies words. He belongs to me because he chooses to belong to me - there is little, honestly, that I could do to keep him if he truly preferd to be free. But he belongs to me. He is mine.

I don't think I will ever be able to express how much that means to me.

I love him.

I trust him.

I admire him.

I respect him.

I adore him.

I... yes, you could say I belong to him.

Because he is mine.

I don't think I can state that clearly enough... I've tried to make this point to people, over and over again, and it never seems to really register... but it's how my head works. How my heart works.

I trust him, I love him, I would do anything to protect him, because he is mine. Because sometimes, he suffers for me. Because he cares enough to realize how much it means to me.

My Kadin.