*shakes her head slightly, not in negation but in wonder, amazement and amusement*

I am calm, and I shall be drawn in and poured out.

I am alive and that life shall be renewed.

I am accepting, not of circumstances or moments but of everything, the Everything. For a moment - it can only have been a moment, though I'd have sworn it was an hour or more without the clock to tell me otherwise - for a moment I was brought back to the realization of who I am.

There are things to change and things to protect, things to happen, things still undone, and none of it truly matters to me right now, not in the way it did when I woke this morning, not in the way it has for years. Now I am content to continue a journey I had forgotten I once began.

Precious illusions, a true awakening... call it what you want, scorn if you like.

Ano teto iri alek la netar melasan. Iri sa dosana zair kihgn ichal.

I awake.

... ... ...

Yes, I know you're reading this wondering what the fuck I just OD'd on. The answer is nothing - no drugs, no substances, nothing. I feel as if I have woken up from a dream to discover a reality far better than any dream could ever be. I'm not going to try to explain this really, nor am I going to doubt in it. This is real. This is something that matters to me. This is personal, yes... and this is written here so that in days to come I can look back and be struck again with the sense of knowledge, contentment, awareness, certainty, that I feel now.