Everyone I know seems to have had something unpleasant happen today.

Yes, myself included.

I really, REALLY hope Caleb gets home soon to help me straighten out life... well, not straight in THAT sense, I'm still quite bi, but... you know what I mean. *sighs*

I'm having really upsetting mood swings again, and I'm looking forward to being altered - we've wine coolers and they will get me merrily ripped.

I need to work on graphics - I've been saying that for a while, haven't I?

I do. I need to work on graphics. And when those are done... odd.

VERY odd.

I just heard someone opening a pop-top can in the living room. No one is there. Dammit, if the cat has learned to do that, I'm moving out. Evil cat.

I need... fuck that.

No more of that "N" word tonight. No want, either.

Just me, depressed, hungry, sleepy... Kadin is supposed to be online tonight, in half an hour. For the first time in a long time...

...

...

...I'm not sure I care.

I REALLY feel crappy right now.

This is so very not good.

But... it'll be ok. He'll cheer me up - he usually does. I'll talk to the bard, to Daris... it'll be ok. Maybe Nreshan, he's amusing... I hope... gods, right now amusement would be a good thing. I honestly feel as if I'm going to fall apart at the seams again.

But then, I feel that way often, right?

No big deal.

*shivers*