And now I feel like a prize idiot. If I'd just waited a bit longer... if I'd just kept my eyes open a little while longer... if I'd just been patient...

*sighs again*

...yeah.

I missed -D-. Went to sleep too soon. Got up too late.

I'm an idiot, I am.

And even more of an idiot for feeling this bad about missing him, neh? After all, this is not someone who matters in the Real World, this is not someone who belongs to me...

...but I am upset regardless.

Eh.

I talked to kitten... who logged off promptly at 10:00. I waited over an hour. I paced. I stalked through the Pens.

And then, finally, tiredly, went to curl up with Caleb.

I woke up at 12:00. I should have gotten up. He was online then, looking for me.

But, like an idiot, I stayed in bed.

Why the hell do I feel guilty?