I base this statement on the recent adventures of Caleb. He'd been taking his brother (16-year-old) to the college to drop off some papers. On the way home he stopped at Safeway to pick up stuff for dinner... and to get a pack of cigarettes. Caleb, being 25-ish, can do this legally. Eamon, his brother, had tagged along into the store.

Now, I can rather see them refusing to sell cigarettes to someone with an underage male next to him. It almost makes sense... and so that was ok. However, that wasn't the PROBLEM.

See, after they said 'no cigarettes' because Eamon was underage, Caleb first explained to them that Eamon was his brother. When that had no result, he said ok, I'll just pay for my groceries and go get them elsewhere.

And they threw him out of the store. They would NOT let him buy groceries, said he was a troublemaker, and threatened to call the cops on him. The manager there apparently would rather loose customers, loose money, and generally come off as an asshole rather than let Caleb buy food there. *sigh*

I hate people like that.

I'm talking to Kadin at the moment, happy Jax. Caleb is getting baked out in the living room, trying to calm down. He's not calm yet. I don't blame him. I am listening to Moonlight Sonata, typing away, wanting to go visible and talk to Nre as well... but really not trusting him or myself.

I don't think he will be... well, what I need right now. I doubt he'll be submissive. Compliant. Cooperative. I REALLY doubt he'll be able to keep from being a smartass and pissing me off. I'm fairly sure he'll want me in Furcadia, when what I want LEAST right now is to get myself stuck in Furc for long.

And the flipside - I don't trust me. I know that if he pisses me off, it'll be far worse than it should be, that even little things, when coming from him, will irritate me a lot. I know that I'll want to take out my frustration and my need on him, not his character, but HIM... and that even if there was a practical way to do so, he wouldn't go for it, not as far as I know.

Sometimes he hints... sometimes, it seems as if he wants to be taken, to be used, to be mine... or at least to be someone's. Problem is, this isn't an all-the-time thing. It's not even often enough for me to be sure I'm not just imagining it. After all, it IS the sort of thing I would tend to imagine, seeing what you want to see is a common thing, right?

Yes, I want to see it. Despite my protests, despite the trouble it could cause... I want him.

Addictive little bastard. Reminds me of Kadin sometimes... but never enough for comfort. Kadin at least is obedient... and doesn't go out of his way to hide the few things that I honestly WANT to see.

*sigh* I think I just need Kadin here. I think I need that a lot.