Confusing Hormones
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I'm talking with Alex (let me just state that again, 'cos I am happy about it - I am talking with Dai!) and discussing my current lack of orgasm.I need to get laid more. This is tricky, since if I get laid during one of my dizzy points, I black out and wake up with a headache. If I even MASTURBATE, that happens... or I don't cum, which is worse... my body is turning off my ability to cum and I do not like this at all. It is leaving me very frustrated and very very very tense. I need people to just start throwing me down and fucking me senseless whether I protest, pass out, etc. or not... it would, at this point, be better for me than the alternative. *sighs* I keep wanting to masturbate... but the easiest way and best way is with the damned loud vibrator, and Caleb is once again asleep. Then again, it's 4:30, I can damned well wake him up soon. *grins* Besides, he can help. And I know he won't mind getting laid. I just... gah. See, I feel guilty having sex with someone when it's all about my orgasm, when it's all about me cumming and passing out and that's that. It feels... hollow. I don't like it. I'd rather masturbate, then devote proper attention to sex at another time. Weird... but me. *shrugs* Trust me, I don't understand it either.
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