*sighs softly, her head in her hands, eyes glaring accusingly at a large chunk of the universe*

Why does this always happen to him?

'Cos I know that of all the people on Furc, idiots, twinks, madmen, prophets, sane people, children, adults, old folks, loons, nuts, kooks... of ALL of them, if I had to pick one person who deserves better than he's getting...

...yeah.

The universe bites.

And it bites pretty damn hard.

So many 'if's... if only he weren't basically straight. If only LJ had been different, had spoken sooner, hadn't spoken at all. If only the universe would change its course.

*sighs again, shaking her head, tired*

And the thing is, I know it doesn't have to be a lie. I know you CAN care for people you meet online, that they DO matter, that there IS a connection made at times. I know that sometimes it's very, very real. That sometimes it's completely honest. That sometimes it counts for everything.

Kadin.

Nick.

Alex.

Daris.

Snow.

Nreshan.

Sin and BF.

The wench.

Talia (who I just did graphics for, she gave me permission to link to her once, yay!).

Even Rhett, I see most of him online.

These people and so many others I know because of the 'net. I keep in touch because of the 'net. I wouldn't have them in my life, wouldn't be planning to MARRY two of them, if it wasn't for what we found online.

I know it CAN work.

So why does it keep falling apart for someone who deserves a good life, someone who I know tries his best for those he cares about, someone who I respect and admire and care for?

Why does the universe suck?

Will someone please tell me?