I am... impatient, I guess. And somewhat surprised at how long it's been since I've talked with Torian.

I am somewhat frightened by what Dai is going through. Frightened mostly because of a mix of "no fair, ~I~ wanted that from him/~I~ want to be where he's at emotionally" and "good god, the one person I believed would be Dom-ish, would hold me, wouldn't ever submit to anyone without a damned good reason is... broken". It hurts.

I am very confused, emotionally.

Yes, I got laid last night. Fairly quietly, for me, which was for the good as we weren't exactly alone in the room.

The one NICE thing about being pregnant - no worries about getting MORE pregnant so I can... experiment a bit, as it were. *shrugs*

My head hurts. My side hurts.

In reality, I should have made my medication stretch out through today. Next time I get it 'filled, it's 5-6 pills a day, NO MORE, for me. I think I can cope with that.

But the doctor is protesting... or being lazy... see, I got a bottle of 30 on Monday. He KNOWS I need at least 6 a day in order to keep from screaming. And although today is going to SUCK, I'd hoped that at least halfway through it I'd be able to get more. But no. I am thinking he's going to make me wait until MONDAY, which, even if I'd enough to get through today, would mean tomorrow would still suck, and Sunday would still suck. Which is not fair.

See, he should give me a week's worth - if I take it too fast, that's my problem then, but there should be at LEAST a week's worth in the bottle. *sighs*

Which is 7 x 6 = 42. I could get by, if I HAD to, on 40. But I'd rather 42, or even 45. Am I likely to get them?

No.

But I'm calling his advice nurse to talk to her about it, to see what's going on. Maybe she'll be able to speed up the process a bit, or something. *sighs* The Pain Lady was supposed to talk to the doctor on Monday - I have no idea if she's managed it. I need to call her today.