Still alive. Fighting with OHP and Kaiser again. Hurting a LOT. I'm at the point where I can't swallow, can't get food down, because my throat seems to have swollen closed... and yes, the pain elsewhere is still getting worse.

I'm going to have to go into Urgent Care soon if this doesn't get better asap - two oxycodone at a shot and it still hurts. Fuck that.

Tired. Haven't gotten much sleep. Trying to eat some candy, at least get some sugar-for-energy. Not much luck. Disjointed sentences and run-on pain is about all I've got today. This really sucks.

It doesn't help in the slightest that my emotions, the ones relating to BDSM anyway, are still in a tangle... and I know why they are, too. *sighs softly* I miss him still.