...got all of two hours of sleep so far, woke up sneezing spider parts, but...

...happy happy happy...

...see, I've got a Torian on webcam now, a Caleb on webcam often, a Kadin on webcam VERY often... and occasionally, now... now... GODS...

...now, occasionally, I can look at the screen and see a shadowed face, dark eyes and dark thoughts and for the first time, I don't end up shivering... well, not with fear, or disgust, or worry, or confusion.

Just pleasure.

I get to brag, today.

I get to brag about my Caleb, my Mate... I got to explain to someone that yes, I love all my boys, I love those who are mine, who belong to me, but that Caleb comes first... that he is my mate... and everything that means to me.

I get to brag about my Cat, Torian, precious little slave with those big serious eyes and that delicious little mouth, so kissable, so beautiful, so fun to show off now that I CAN.

I get to brag about my Kitten, my Kadin, wonderful boy... my First Slave, the one I trust and respect and admire as well as adore and desire and need. *purrs* Such a perfect slave, he is... and I am so proud to own him.

I get to brag just a little bit about the newness, the shadow... although you see, I AM being semi-respectful so far, but DAMN I want to shout it to the hills, gods... yeah.

I get to brag about the fact that I will be making $350 and Deb will be making $350 for the catalog we will be working on.

I get to brag about the fact that... oh. Wait. Having severe allergic reactions to the point of Not Being Able To Breathe and having all the skin on my hands peel off, my feet swell up like balloons, and my legs look like they've been severely whipped with a bunch of thin bamboo canes... that's not a brag-point. But news. It's definitely news.

Err... yeah.

Anyway.

Torian.

PRETTY.

Had I mentioned that? I'm being all thrilled.