I'm Gonna Dig...
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Another poem for those of you who care...

...yes, I'm feeling just a tad cynical right now. Intense, unending pain coupled with the knowledge that I am the worst parts of quite a few of the world's 'oldest professions' really does it to me.

That, and the sammich I ate earlier is NOT sitting well... and dammit, thanks to her I keep wanting to say "Myuuu" which is SO not me. *wry grin*

I'm downloading winamp skins yet again, 'cos I get happy kadin thoughts whenever I do... I'm worried about him again, of course. He called during Buffy and although I did talk to him long enough that I missed the ending, I was feeling crappy and pretty much chased him off... I know he needs a chance to talk with a friendly voice, and I feel quite unaccountably guilty for refusing. Then again, I've blown off pretty much everyone of late, I hate dealing with people when I feel miserable.

The people who review skins for winamp are pathetic... half of 'em are teenage boys who hate it if it's not an anime pic or naked chicks... and the other half who hate it if it's anything other than cars or some REALLY insane design based on their favorite band... and nine-tenths of the skins are done with a skinner program (translation: really pathetic coloring-book shit that a first-grader could do).

Not that much good... but I've found a few gems. If anyone out there collects winamp skins and has some NON-anime, NON-naked-chick, vaguely 3d, well-done, NON-skinner skins, I'd love to get ahold of them!

Ok. Entry. I know I had a plan when I started writing, but "The Archer" is now playing and it's ripped away my thoughts and left me with loneliness and an insane desire to find a copy of La Blue Girl and play it over and over and over.

I am not feeling all that sane.

The fact that in about two hours, 15-ish minutes, I need to be up running errands, is not helping...

"I do, I do, I do, I do, I feel so elated... would you, would you, would you, would you, please bring me joy..."

Dammit.

Out of my head, Splashdown witch!

*chuckles* Or at least someone help me find some NEW splashdown songs to get hooked on... I recommend "Dig", which is a torch-singer classic-ish thing. Really pretty. Really wrenching. Really short too, dammit. *pouts*

"High above is the place from which I like to think I fell..."

"...there really is nothing to fear, cos if there is, I'll send an angel down..."

"...I'm gonna dig, dig, dig..."

It's a leftover from listening a few too many times to good music. It gets stuck. It does.

OK, I think I've ranted enough for the moment... I'm off to download more. Besides, the sky outside is light enough that I can tell the difference between the trees and the sky itself... never a good sign. I should be asleep, dreaming of whales and sex and french toast... or just of happiness, since I am beginning to think it is only available long-term in dreamland.

Did I mention I'm feeling just a bit pessimistic and slightly sarcastic and maybe, just a bit, a tiny bit, depressed?

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