The urgent need for medical care put quite the solid end to that. I still refused to get foodstamps... up until I realized that if I wanted to eat some days, I had damned well BETTER get them. Up until now, though, I'd been hanging onto the "I'll get better soon" sort of optimism.

Seizures have this nifty trick of making you VERY aware of everything you can't, won't, or shouldn't do.

So yeah, I have applied. It'll be 2-3 months until I hear back for sure, although I can check online to see for myself if they've processed it yet at any point. Anyway, if it goes through I will be getting $200-$500 a month... and it will be backdated. In short, I may end up with as little as $400 (if they're quick and I get low-end) or as much as $1500 (if they're slow and I get high-end). Part of this will go to Ryan/Grr to help pay bills. Part of it gets set aside so I can get a new pair of pants or two and a pair of comfortable shoes that are fit for summer. Part of it will go to getting me down to California and back, or getting Caleb up here and back. Part of it will go to getting Kadin down here and back. Part of it will go to art supplies. Part of it will go to phonecards. Part of it will go to upgrading my computer. Part of it will go to getting a PS2.

That's more or less everything I really need and really want (except baklava but I can get that fairly easy every now and then - Bink even gave me a bite of it last night). It is in order of importance, also more or less... if I end up with the $1500 I should be able to manage everything up through art supplies, possibly more. If it's only the $400... ehh. A bit to Ryan, a bit to Grr, a pair of pants (and maybe a nice skirt that fits), and some more pens.

I am hopeful, but have learned my lesson regarding hatching eggs.

What was I going to say?

I have no clue. *blinks and wanders off looking mildly curious and definitely confused*