*curls up, pouting* Do me a favor, and guess at my secret? I would really rather not have to blurt it out.

Alex says:

Um ... I'm not renowned for my sharpness when I'm inebriated.

Dehan says:

*sighs again* Dammit. Eh... it shouldn't matter, right? *rather hopes you decide to speak to her again by sunday*

Alex says:

You home-make your absinthe? You really are trying to kill yourself aren't you?

Dehan says:

ME make it? No! I wouldn't trust me to amke porrige some days.

Alex says:

You're gender-swapping again ...

Dehan says:

And that's not a typo - the make misspelling is. The post before there isn't.

Alex says:

Um.

Dehan says:

*shrugs* You'd not asked?

Alex says:

I suppose it was too much to hope for.

Dehan says:

*nods... shrugs again* It usually is.

Alex says:

Although you have slipped up before ... I just try to give people the benefit of the doubt. Bad move?

Dehan says:

*shakes... her, at the moment... head* Not really. At least, I hope not.

Alex says:

Oh well, it shouldn't matter, right?

Alex says:

So why does it ... seem ... to matter.

Dehan says:

*wry grin* But it does.

Dehan says:

*shrugs* It matters because we were both getting far too interested.

Dehan says:

If you didn't care, you wouldn't care... if I didn't care, I wouldn't care. Nice and simple. *sighs* And half of me wishes I'd told you earlier, and half of me wishes I'd not told you at all.

Dehan says:

I'm sorry.

Alex says:

Gods, this silence is getting too long.

Alex says:

I'm wondering what to say.

Dehan says:

*wry grin* I'm afraid I don't have any words to offer.

Alex says:

I keep starting things and changing my mind.

Alex says:

Wordless at last.

Dehan says:

*nods* Doesn't happen often.

Dehan says:

I wish it had been for more pleasant reasons.

Alex says:

I thought you were ... too perfect ... too like me.

Dehan says:

*laughs* Only different in one way... the worst way possible.

Alex says:

Um.

Dehan says:

*shrugs* Eh... if there's nothing to say, there's nothing to say. Don't push it. If you find words, I'll be here... if not... eh. Hardly your fault, considering.

Dehan says:

*curls up, tail tucked over ears, to wait*

Alex says:

Don't go bashing yourself over the head ... I'm glad to know.

Alex says:

*waits for his universe to realign itself*

Alex says:

It's like a Shakespearean comedy...

Alex says:

Technically I ought to turn out to be a) your twin brother b) a girl in disguise ... unfortunately ...

Dehan says:

*amused* If I'd read this, I would have said it was a bit far-fetched, you know. And no, you're no girl in disguise... which is for the best from my point of view. *shrugs* I really do prefer men.

Alex says:

So we do you play males ... is it just a challenge for you, interesting RP etc.

Alex says:

why even.

Dehan says:

Part of it is that... hm. For at least a week or two each month I would honestly give quite a bit to be male... and you met me during the tail end of that. I... admire men, and like the mindsets that they use. It's interesting RP, just like playing different types of women, I enjoy the chance to see if I can do it well.

Dehan says:

I could go into the odder details involving sexuality and my childhood and various dares... I could point out that for every twenty well-written femmes there's one or two well-written males so I enjoyed being able to 'stand out' a bit more...

Dehan says:

...I could explain the fun I've had, list all the reasons I DON'T like playing femfurres as often...

Dehan says:

...or I could just say 'I have no idea', which is closer to the truth, and sit here again.

Alex says:

I was just curious ... I wasn't asking for a defence or anything

Dehan says:

*wry grin* Then you're the first. It's... I understand why males who play femme characters get so defensive. You keep getting bitched at for it.

Alex says:

The inquisition is just for curiosities sake ... but, then, and this is a difficult question to phrase, since you know something of me personally, why do we still get on well, RP aside, because, well, to put it bluntly, women generally don't like me overmuch.

Dehan says:

*shrugs* Women don't like men who are clearly better than them, generally... we're used to our brains being our saving grace, our source of pride.

Dehan says:

You are, I would wager, so drastically more intelligent, more clever, more witty, than most women... they envy you.

Dehan says:

I, on the other hand, fully intend to learn from you. Different thing alltogether. Plus you treated me like a human being. A refreshing thing.

Dehan says:

You and I have similar tastes - that doesn't hurt. I would wager your tastes are QUITE different than most women you've met.

Alex says:

*laughs* Yes but I also do some impinging on "woman territory" - I sport 'sensitivity', I cry, I cook, I'm crap in a fistfight, I like flowers ...

Dehan says:

*laughing* Anyone who doesn't cry worries the hell out of me. I like a man who can cook - I'm lazy. And I like women... I prefer men, but women are quite pleasant. *sudden grin* And taste good

Alex says:

This is true ... women, generally, taste better than men.

Alex says:

I will give you that.

Dehan says:

*shrugs* There really shouldn't be much difference... but I've been telling myself that for several days now.

Dehan says:

Do you have any idea how easy it is to become interested in you?

Alex says:

You know, you've probably done your sex a favour ... I'd practically sworm off the whole bloody lot of you, despite the fact I consider myself to be bisexual ... knowing there are women like you is all the encouragment I need to re-investigate matters.

Alex says:

Maybe I meet the wrong women....

Dehan says:

*wry grin* I've done my sex a favor indeed... and I'm going to quite happily curse every single one of them for the next few hours.

Alex says:

*blinks, finally stopping burbling in order to read* Hmmm?

Dehan says:

*wonders what you're Hmmm-ing about*

Alex says:

The line that begins 'do you have any idea how easy...', the answer to which would be a blank-eyed 'no'

Dehan says:

Ahh. The correct answer is: very easy. It doesn't help that you seem completely unaware of this fact.

Alex says:

Compliments *remembers his drill and thanks gracefully, grinning a bit*

Dehan says:

*grins as well, a rather wobbly expression but about as firm as is possible right now* Glad to see at least that stuck.

Alex says:

Don't look wobbly ... I'm adjusted now, as you can see, nothing's changed ... I still care, regardless of gender.

Dehan says:

*the grin is just a bit sheepish now* It's... a relief to hear... but you'll pardon me if I'll reserve my full relief for when you sober up and say that again.

Alex says:

Oh come on, I may be pissed out of my head but I'm not going to wake up in the morning and think "Jax is a girl ... oh my god!" and do the whole spawn of satan act

Dehan says:

*chuckles, sitting up and more or less uncurling* I should hope not... I got enough of that from my mother.

Dehan says:

They'd been intending to adopt a boy, incidentally... I was something of a mistake.

Alex says:

*hugs you* Far from it.

Dehan says:

*grins again, ears shading red* Erm... compliment. Dammit. Thank you?

Alex says:

*discovers the concept of hugging you is as pleasing as ever ... therefore continues*

Dehan says:

*curls tail and paws around you in return, churring quite contentedly*

Alex says:

*sighs in relief* This was relatively undramatic, for us.... all the same, it must have been difficult for you, with that sword of damocles hanging over your mousy ears all the time*

Dehan says:

*NODS* That would be an understatement. And the more intrigued and entangled I got, naturally the more I wanted to 'confess'... and the harder it was. Gah.

Alex says:

*nuzzles you* I'm quite pleased with the way I'm taking this ... in absolute truth now, initial platitudes aside, it really doesn't matter. I'm still curious, fascinated ... besotted as ever.

Dehan says:

I'm... I seem to be actually surprised. And still incredibly relieved. You've been distracting and intriguing me enough that the thought of this ending rather abruptly was quite upsetting...

Dehan says:

...and I'm pleased that apparently my emotions are returned...

Dehan says:

*amused* It's nice to see that Dehan and Dashwood aren't the only ones who get themselves in odd messes.

Dehan says:

And I'm going to shut up now because I'm still horribly sure that I'm going to talk myself right back off the cliff I just avoided.

Alex says:

*laughs* This is truly a huge mess ... but I don't care ... let's enjoy the view on the way down, I particularly like those jagged foam-tipped rocks, don't you? And the man ... person ... eating shark is rather aesthetically pleasing...

Dehan says:

*muchly amused* I'm in favor of that... and this certainly keeps life from becoming boring. Nothing like a good scenic tumble-into-certain-doom to brighten one's day.