...most of the reason that I'm using this text program (called kewlpad, look it up, I'm too lazy to link right now) is because the orange, despite being gawdaweful ugly, is a lot easier on my eyes. This is important because of the migrane and the fact that my vision has been going out again.

Had I mentioned that nifty bit of life? Yep. Black spots, tracers, and little skittering movements in the corners of my vision. It's enough to make the sanest of people jumpy, and when you combine it with one hand going numb and the rest of my body's nerve endings tweaking out at random... yeah. NOT good.

Still, all in all this's been a good day. I ended up not making it to Pagan Fair, which is a shame, and not making it to game either. A 2-hour bus ride when I can't see straight and my head is pounding hard enough to make me queasy just doesn't sound like a good plan. *shrug* A perk of staying home: I got to talk to Caleb! Admittedly, for his sake and mine both I wish I hadn't been talking through a headache, but it was very good to hear his voice.

I've been mostly out-of-contact with my boys for quite a while now, since November, if I recall correctly. I know they miss me... and I miss them. Life's just not the same without them, without talking to them and playing with them nearly every day. Kadin particularly deserves more than he's getting right now. *sudden grin* ...and I mean that in several different ways.

Ehh. If the anti-depressant, painkilling, anti-stress pills keep working, hopefully that'll let me be up and about more... and *fingers crossed hopefully* possibly even WORKING, which, if I'm working at Stream, means that I'll have lots of computer access.

Yes, one of the reasons I'm reapplying at Stream is because they're USED to a high turnover, and it won't cause them too much inconvenience if I either relapse into illness, move, or whatever.

I really like this text program. Had I mentioned that yet?

It's nice. Sweet.

Anyway, a couple of song recommendations: "Russian Lullabye" by E-Type, "Wytches Chant" by Inkubus Sukkubus, "Celestial Soda Pop" by Ray Lynch, "All Is Full Of Love" by Bjork, "Hell Is Around The Corner" by Tricky and Portishead (GREAT combination, they should do more), anything by Meg Lee Chin, and Marilyn Manson's cover of "Tainted Love". Ok, so it's more than a couple of song recommendations, but seriously, if you get the chance, check these out. I'd be willing to bet that a) they won't be what you expect from the titles and b) you'll - whoever you are - will like at LEAST 2-3 of them, if not all of them.

Heh. Win XP skins. And I've got the program to MAKE 'em now.

In case you couldn't tell, this entry is being written in chunks whenever I can stand to type or even look at the computer screen. Geh. Stupid headache, go away. Take the stomach ache with you, please.

Proof I'm tired - when I tried to log into d-land to post this, three f'ing times I typed my username as 'jazravern' instead of 'jaxraven'. Bah. I think I should just go back to bed.