In Praise Of...
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Ok, this is an entry about Rhett. If you can't cope with that, go away. *grin*

He just sent me a picture... "If Jax was a supervillain" and it SO kicks ass.

See, I can talk to Rhett. He sees the supervillain, the bitchgoddess, the slavegirl, the vanilla chickie, the sick thing, the sex kitten, all of me. He knows more about what is going on in my life than anyone else at any given time, including my boys usually.

I can talk to him.

Sure, sometimes he scares me - he's insane, psychotic, sadistic, evil, cruel, manipulative, and horrible... and that's just the GOOD parts. *wry grin* But when it comes down to it, I really do like him, I really do get along with him generally, and I really DO enjoy talking to him and with him. He LISTENS. He actually LISTENS.

Not because I own him, or because he's got a crush on me, or because of some silly reason... he listens 'cos he is honestly interested and actually cares. And he talks, too.

*grin*

Talks about WONDERFUL things... he's even more demented than the Tygrr, than Ragin, than... well... anyone. He puts Beth to shame at times.

He knows how to abuse me and tear me apart... but then y'know what? He puts me back together again. He knows how to push all those half-hidden, painful buttons... but guess what happens afterward? He lets me push his.

Rhett is my dark god... *shrug* I've an odd pantheon, I do. And yes, he IS there. Only a minor deity religion-wise... but he matters to me, and he affects my life.

Rhett, who is one of the most insane people I know, is also one of the ones most responsible for what few shreds of sanity I still have.

I'm on percoset and alcohol just now, so you know. I don't often go all gushing about anyone 'cept maybe my boys when I'm sober... so I'm glad that I am a tad doped up just now. I don't talk about Rhett very often.

Yeah, I've been furious at him, and him at me.

Yeah, he's seriously hurt me a few times.

Guess what? Of all the people who have hurt me (and it's a damned long list) he's the only one who has honestly tried to make it better... AND succeeded.

I like him a lot. *smile*

Oh, and if anyone cares, I have an infected kidney. Just figured I should mention the hospital results at some point.

*goes off to talk with Rhett, miss her boys horribly, and be drugged and happy about it*

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