I WOULD like to know when it happened... because late afternoon on Saturday I pretty much passed out, rather suddenly, and couldn't be woken for a good 4+ hours.

I would also like to know why I feel like a million dollars... if a million dollars had just lost its best friend.

Am I just imagining it all? Is this just another sign that my sanity is slipping further away? Is the odd rush I get every few minutes, the odd little catch as if some gear is loose, just for a second, like switching gears on a bike... is that feeling just a hallucination?

Did it work? I don't know. I do know that I slept like a log last night. That I don't feel as if I will ever NEED to sleep again, but that I finally CAN.

It might just be all in my head... but you know what? If it is... so what? If the whole thing was some psychosomatic effect of mental instability... eh, fuck it. At least I feel better. *wry grin* And I do. Gods, I do.

I still miss her, though.