We have a thing here called the Max - it's a light-rail transportation system, a subway train above-ground. Nifty. I was out one night, drugged, bored, and on a fairly-unoccupied Max car... and I ended up masturbating, which isn't that rare for me to do in public, particularly in moving vehicles. Scott and Caleb can attest to this habit. *slight blush and a HUGE grin*

Anyway. Max. Bored. Masturbating. By the time I got off (and left the Max, too) there were five other people, one of them another woman, masturbating along with me. It was VERY surreal, and very fun, and I'm still half-sure I dreamed it, 'cause things like that don't happen to normal people, yes? *blinks*

If I'm asked about this when I am sober, I will deny it entirely. At the moment, I'm slightly tipsy, and just finished a rather nice cum *licks her fingers again* courtesy of said Torian, who is going to be FAR more red-cheeked and red-eared than I am ever likely to get when he reads this. *smirks*

The dear boy blushes at the drop of a skirt... I'm definitely looking forward to getting him here.

So right now my plans are this: get Caleb up here for as long as possible, including the OryCon dates. Get Kadin and Torian here for a week each, overlapping during OryCon - I want some private time with each, but I want my boys, all of them, here for the 'Con.

Snowtygrrr.

That's a subject-and-a-half right there. Part of me is hoping he'll be here for the 'Con too, just to see how he reacts to it... but most of me hopes instead that he arrives before or after. I know what mood I'll be in with my boys around me and giddy...

...and while it's a GOOD mood... it's not all I am.

And not all I want him to see.

And, I suspect, not all he wants to see. *grins softly*

I don't think he even realizes just how much I owe him right now. He... being ABLE to trust means a lot to me. It's something I haven't been able to do well, if at all, most of my life. Being able to sit down and say "Yes, there is one person who is in many ways a stranger, one I haven't met yet, and I CAN trust him, even though I don't own him, even though he's not my slave"... it's not something I have ever really had.

It makes a big difference in my life.

So, although I've no idea if he'll see this... thank you for giving me a reason to trust, a chance to trust. It means a lot.