What it DOES have to do with is this odd little grin that keeps sneaking out, the pleasant tingle that's running through me, the happiness that I feel.

Oh, it's not ALL happies and snuggles and fluff - the thought of T'lesh going into the army THERE terrifies me. Too much chance of him never coming back out, and that chance gets better and better every damned day. Want him out of that country, out of that life. *sighs* In a perfect world I'd own a tiny apartment complex and a large house, both of them within walking distance of Grr. My boys would be here, my friends would be here, either at the house or in the apartments. Working at Stream, more than likely... good pay rate and yeah, Stream is evil and sucks, but if they were all going there they'd have friends, it'd work out. Of course, since I am wishing for a PERFECT world, I guess I could just wish we were all rich, all had houses all over Portland, and limos and fast cars... but I'm wishing semi-realistic. Maybe the apartment complex isn't even mine... they just all stay in the same place. The house isn't huge, just big enough.

But we're together, and I can finally get the people I care about away from the fragments of hell that they live through every day.

*shrugs*

Nreshan updated again, finally... *smiles* ...there am I happy. Arrasto updated in more than one place at once (and with beautiful words indeed)... *another smile* ...there am I happy.

I have chocolate-covered gummi bears... *licks her lips* ...there am I happy.

I have a Scott who is an amazing friend... *she waves at him* ...there am I happy.

And I'm here. In all the world, there isn't any place I would rather be. There are places I'd love to visit. People I'd love to be WITH. But Oregon is my home, and placewise, I'm happy here. *shrugs* I wouldn't really want to live in any other state, any other country, not for long. This IS home.