I wasn't kidding about the seizure... and I wish I was kidding about this fuzz-mind-thing. Caleb arrives around 11:00 pm tonight, and I won't be there for him because I need to stick near this hospital, near people who know what to look for, and most of all, in a place where if I DO blast myself into anti-memory again and have to wake up in an ambulance with a mask on my face, I know the entire household will do everything they can, including going with me, passing messages, and just generally keeping me sane.