I am very not coping today.

And I am VERYVERY glad that (as far as I can tell) I didn't get in a wreck. I think.

Because I'm not sure, and this upsets me.

I am loosing time again, badly, hours gone and I don't know where they went.

I am switching, flipping, and my mind WON'T HOLD STILL. Grr. This irritates me.

I didn't have sex.

I didn't do a damned thing.

And I will keep telling myself that until I believe it?

I don't know what I did, I don't even have the energy to care, all I know is that I'm dizzy and tired and gods, my head hurts. I want to sleep but when I lie down it's like getting this nifty constant running commentary from the moderator at a three-part-harmony discussion in the loony bin, in full stereo... or something like that...

how 'bout getting off of these antibiotics...
how 'bout them transparant dangling carrots...
thank you...

I so don't know what's going on, today.

This is one of the days when I just want to curl up and forget the world exists... can't, though. Can't, don't dare, none of that, not with pretty red lines and pretty white pills and too much here for me to slip and forget and suddenly discover five seconds too late.

Ouch.

Little white pills... oops. No. Yellow. The white ones are better 'cos I can take less and feel more. But they won't give me THOSE, of course. Which is reasonable. At the rate I make 'em disappear you would think I was dealing them... I WISH. I'd have money, if that were true.

I'm fairly sure I paid my health care bill. *blinks* FAIRLY sure.

Not certain, though.

I hate this.

Oh, wait... recipt. I have the recipt. I did pay it.

*blinks* Gonna go watch a movie... maybe that will relax me a bit.