My Recent Past, Part One
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Once again, it's been a while. As I write this, I am staring at yet another bottle of Vicodin...
Beth. She's a 'big' girl, think Valkyre or however-you-spell-it, the sort of woman who would have been painted in Germany a long time ago but who today gets called fat...
Beth is evil. She is far more evil than I will ever be, and I both envy this and am drawn to it. She's powerful, determined... she's also a switch. She likes Evil Willow and the thought of Spike in chains, she likes bondage fairies and she's on Vicodin for the long haul, like me.
I got a hug from her. This, like hugs from Juliet, brightens my day every time I manage it. No, Beth isn't straight... she's generally a sub in bed when it comes to men, and a Domme in bed when it comes to women, and when she's not in bed, she's just herself, and she is incredible.
Yes, I have a crush on her... but this is me, I get crushes fairly easily. However, this one seems to have lasted a while... dunno. I know I have no chance with this woman, she's one of those people who I end up acting pathetic around, tripping over myself and saying stupid things... and well, she seems willing to tease, torment, and flirt, but nothing more. I suppose it's for the best, though.
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