The sad thing is that this is rational, in a way... but what I can't understand is why she thinks it will affect her ability to keep/raise her kids. Kadin... yeah. If he/we don't get paperwork in order, he may not be able to stay. You know what?

That's ok.

I didn't think about this too much, before... but there are two options. Either a) he goes back and gets the paperwork together from that end, if it truly matters to him, and comes back here... or b) we resort to a legal proof of the relationship we already have. *wry grin* It had damned well better be "a".

But there will be no odd visitors from the government. Either he stays legally... or he goes ON TIME, etc. I don't intend to fuck up his chances by letting him procrastinate - I do that too much on my own.

I want him to stay. I think that he and Caleb are at least partially getting along, most likely more than just partially. Slash and Megan like him. Grr likes him. Everyone, in short, can deal with him so far.

He needs training, needs reassurance, and really, the poor boy is only 18, what else do you expect? But he's bright, and he's clever, and he is trying his best... Kadin's best is very good indeed.

Perhaps I just don't understand all the legalities of it. Perhaps there is something horrible that I'm missing. Perhaps there is a reason to be panicked... but you know what? I don't really think so.

I think that this is his first day here... that it's been hectic and intense. Give him a week. Give ME a week. Dammit, I want to prove that I can be responsible, that I can make this work. I should be able to.

The hardest part isn't going to be paperwork or finding him a job - we stick him at Stream if we can, once it's legal, and he will HAVE TO handle the paperwork on his own with whatever help he can beg from Alan and maybe Rhett.

See, I've never moved COUNTRIES. I don't know what is required. Neither does he, true, but it's his fate at stake here. You'd think he would have enough incentive to learn.

Incidentally, if ANYONE out there knows what is required for American citizenship or at least an extended VISA to work on citizenship from Canada to the US, please help me out here. I want my boy to stay, but I've NO idea where to start, beyond going to the library and asking (guess what we're doing tomorrow).

Huh.

You know, if I'd wanted this to work, I should have had everything done and ready ahead of time, right?

Look back through my past entries.

Take a GOOD look.

I react.

I last-minute-rush.

I cram.

I panic... but it's ok.

See, the few things I've tried to make perfect ahead of time fall apart, almost instantly. I don't want that.

So I let it hang... and now it's crunch time. Now it's safely time to throw myself into this new panic... and now is when stuff gets done. *sigh*

Kadin's asleep in the cage, with Caleb asleep on the bed beside the cage. My boys. I keep looking back there, mostly to reassure myself that this isn't a dream.

I'm nervous now. Worried. Afraid that Grr knows something that I don't, that apparently having someone from Canada even in the same household is... what? Illegal? Bad ju-ju? Proof of poor parenting ability? WTF? I don't understand it, but now I'm worried about it. *wry grin*

Eh. Welcome to my life... perpetual Panic Mode.