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I talked to Kadin twice today. Once online, briefly... and once today when he CALLED. *blinks* We talked for over an hour, laughing, watching words disappear. I miss him. I miss Nick... I'm worried about him. I miss myself a bit too.

I got a phone call from my mother.

She wants me to move back to the coast - no internet access, no decent bookstores or libraries, no movie theaters, no malls, no friends, no pets, no playmates... no slaves. Just a tiny coastal retirement town. I think not.

Nre has finally started asking. Funny, that... since he only seems to ask, only lets it matter, when he knows it's not bloody likely that I will be ABLE to stay, when for whatever reason it's important to me that I go.

At first I thought he was just doing it to be a brat, that it was almost amusing... but I'm starting to wonder. It's as if he WANTS to prove that his emotions, his opinions, don't matter. Why would he want that? So he can go back to ignoring them. Hiding them. Pretending they don't exist.

*shrug* They do exist. They do matter. I want to see them, to see HIM, I want to watch him act and react and exist. *sigh* More fool me, I suppose.

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