Pure, simple RELIEF.

I haven't felt this in a while.

She... equals... mutual goals... relief, relief, RELIEF. And a challenge too, because I could, if I wanted, strive to take control.

I won't be that suicidal... but I COULD.

I'm not afraid any more.

I don't have to be afraid.

She won't touch Kadin. Won't hurt my boys. Won't hurt ME. And the worship... fading.

Equals.

Gods, this feels good.

I hadn't known how much I was dreading and anticipating her answer. I was sure she would take charge. Take control. Take ME. And yeah, part of me was looking forward to it, to taking my place...

...but...

...no.

Such blessed relief.