VERY.

Thank the gods that Alan is home...

I'm gonna curl up and read for a while. I'm hurting again/still. I'm tired. At least I'm not hungry, and I'm smiling, somewhat. Talked to Kadin again, finally having gotten some rest and finally having settled a few issues in my head (which is where most of them are). I do love the boy - no matter how horrible my mood is, he always finds some way to make me smile, some way to make me glad that I own him. I am quite proud of him.

I'm waiting, hoping that Torian/Arrasto will show up online. I'd like to talk to him for a few minutes. *sighs* I love him, I do... and I know that he's - still - not used to my tempers. He doesn't know how to react to them. And he has not yet learned that I by FAR prefer to be told that he's not feeling well and doesn't want to play, than to deal with sulks and rudeness...

...because that makes ME want to not play. Ever. I have a lot of very stubborn pride, and a lot of VERY set ideas as to how my pets should behave, and I hadn't properly explained much of this.

I've been saying this for a while now, but I think it's finally hit Critical Mass, as it were: I need to get back to training. Not just kadin and torian, although they are certainly top of the list right now. It's been a long time since I've done any serious training... I've been looking back over my weblogs, over my various diaries, and really, it's been TOO long. Just as my pets grow lax and displeasing without training, my skills fade and my moods get worse when I am not frequently engaged in training my boys.

So yeah. A project I'd started, courtesy of gerath, is going to get back underway... I'm looking forward to this. Productivity, as it were.

It should be amusing.