Sleepy, Not Serious
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I know my boy is curled up, asleep, on the couch. I don't really doubt it. He's been so tired... worn out, first from his trip, then from long nights and early days. So I think he is asleep.I wish he wasn't - I have a Caleb, and Calebs are good things, but dammit, this is the first night since he arrived that Kadin hasn't been within arm's reach. It's very confusing. I miss him. It's almost 3:00 am, right now. We got back from coffee - Caleb and I dropped Kadin off at Grr's house, then drove home. Cal had meant to get cigarettes on the way home, but didn't. *pout* So he will be going out again. And I am up. Awake. Here. Online. Writing. There's a LOT of words backlogging inside my head right now, and I want to get them out... but if/when I do, it'll get far too serious. It scares me, thinking that seriously. I don't like doing it. I want life to be easy, and fun, and uncomplicated except for the interesting parts, and something that I can deal with. Not this current maddening tangle that has me so VERY confused. It doesn't help that I have a nasty rash around my armpits - I know, cheerful. I am allergic to a deodorant that I borrowed, and it's leaving me in Itch Hell. Not fun. I constantly look like an ape, scratching and contorting... makes me feel very stupid, and I HATE feeling stupid. Anyway... I think I'm going to look for amusing things to do now. I wish Kadin was online. I know he doesn't keep Jax hours, few people do, but dammit... MY boy. Want him around, even if it's just online. If he doesn't log on soon, I think I will go to bed, and see if I can have Caleb snuggles, which will make up for the lack of a Kadin. *grin*
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