I know, I know, there are more productive things I could do. The point here isn't to be productive, though. It's to change the world I am stuck in. To make something new, something different, happen.

Anyway, while I'm thinking about what to change, maybe my mind will stop trying to lock away the entry I've been trying to write for several days now. I've actually attempted writing it quite a few times... and stopped after only a few paragraphs. It's just not ready to be written. I don't know WHY, it's sitting in my head cluttering it up and sounds fine in my thoughts, but somehow I can't seem to actually put it all into words.

This is very frustrating, for someone who writes as much as I do. It is actually seriously upsetting to have a complete and well-formed series of thoughts and ideas in my head that I can't seem to find words for. Grr.

I'm going to cut this off for the moment... I'm digging through a lot of stuff online, and getting distracted. *shrugs*