I've got a spiffy new journal now, thanks to Talia... it's black-bound with pages in various shades of pink and white, and the fact that I LIKE the pink and white should clue you in to the kickass-ness of this thing. It's rather emphatic on the whole Bad Girl thing, y'see. I'm working on a couple of black/white/hotping layout designs in hopes of posting some of what I write, but I may end up just posting bits here instead. *another shrug*

I'm DEFINITELY glad that I've got my anti-seizure meds refilled (and with the proper dosage this time, even)... my hands are starting to twitch and my right leg went completely out last night... between that and the mini-seizure when Kadin was here, I'm getting kind of nervous. See, the way Dylantin works is that it builds up, and once it's to the correct level it inhibits seizures. How do you tell what level is right? See, first off, the level varies per person, anywhere between 0 and 200. They test your level via blood draws but, and here's the kicker, even if they know what level you're AT, they don't know which level you SHOULD be at. So what you end up doing is taking a slowly-changing dosage until you figure out where you sit. Too dramatic a change will actually TRIGGER a seizure. You can bet I'm not happy about this, particularly since too high a dosage will leave a half-seizure constantly - basically I'll act and look like I'm a bit tipsy. My legs won't always work, I'll be dizzy and even more forgetful, and hey, nausia, isn't that nifty? *twitch*

Fish, since I'm awake and since Ryan asked, I'll be trying to clean the room today, also calling my mother, also trying to get ahold of a docter again. Geh. I may be napping for an hour before getting on the phone again - got a bit of a headache right now and the Evil Static From Hell wouldn't help.