I guess it boils down to these brief updates:

Tomorrow I'm doing lunch-ish with my mom. Right now there's a goddamned chariot race in my head, and it's really annoying. I'm hallucinating again.

Oh, and I'm gonna get drunk.

Self-destructive? Who, me? Never...

...really...

...honest...

...*sighs* At least I didn't play with knives today, neh? Although there's still plenty of time before I have to deal with my mom.

Four sleeping pills and I'm wide awake. All I want is to sleep so I don't have to deal with this.

Argh.

Did I mention that this is a very pathetic excuse for an update? No? Oh... mentioning it now. Sorry.