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Thought about making this an unsent letter... but dammit, I want it SENT.

Maybe this is kind of picking at hairs, but... dammit, I want to eat too! This is what, the third night in a row that I've been completely left out of dinner? Hell, last night Ryan and I both got shafted. It's really frustrating - I am doing my best to stay out from underfoot, to not piss anyone off, to not complain... and apparently, I've instead managed to turn completely f'ing invisible!

It says on the menu 'fast food' for tonight, as I recall. Great, so give me five bucks and let me go find something to eat. If you are changing the meal plan, at least have the decency to include me.

Yeah. Someone died. Y'know, the statistics on how many people die EVERY SINGLE DAY pretty much promises that every so often, one of the recently-dead will be someone you know. And I'm sorry, I know it sucks, I know it's miserable and that you're taking it hard...

...but how would you feel if YOU were the one who was overlooked repeatedly? How would you feel if YOU were the one who got snapped at, told in a smug tone of voice 'no food for you', basically had your face rubbed in the fact that your presence counts for zilch?

I don't think you would put up with it. I don't know why I am, other than that I don't know what to DO about it yet.

I refuse to be ignored. I refuse to be left out of household meals.

This is really bothering me. I know that it might not seem like a big deal, but please understand, this is one of the biggest 'buttons' I've got. I don't want to be forgotten.

Dinner was paid with out of your pocket? Cool. TELL ME, and I'll ring up Ryan and see if he's willing to pay you back for food for he and I, or we'll think of something. Don't wait to tell me until the smell of food is drifting in and I come out only to be yelled at.

Another thing - you've asked that I not snap at you, said I was getting too snarky. Please, by all that's holy, take the edge out of your voice too? I'm trying my best, I'm willingly taking antidepressants, I'm offering to get up in the morning to drive people so you don't have to, I'm TRYING here. Please, stop snapping at me.

Please.

*curls up in a corner*

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