Western Union, Bite Me
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The answering machine has died.

This is, under current circumstances, a small tragedy, since now I am relying on guesswork and luck to continue the production of a miracle.

Then again, miracles were never meant to come easily, so I suppose I shouldn't be surprised. Nor should I be surprised if this one doesn't appear at all - after all, although I am occasionally the benificiary of good luck, I am more often Lady Luck's dishrag, and am becoming accustomed to that state.

I am also, in case you couldn't guess, in quite a lot of pain. Didn't go to coffee last night. Should have - didn't get to. Life sucks that way.

So tonight I go visit Grr, maybe to do coffee, maybe just to see her, whatever. *fingers crossed*

Yes, I am hoping that visiting grr will have a pain-removal-inducing result, brought about by Manna directly, via the Vicki-Lady. I am also hoping that Snowtygrrr's ridiculously generous offer was sincere and that I'm not hanging any of my hopes on a pleasant little dream (which would be quite possible - I seem to be living in a dreamworld just now).

Arrasto is on his way back to Israel. Caleb is on his way to California. Kadin is in Canada, Nick is in the army, Daris is in a state-I-can-never-remember, Hida is in Canada... and I, I am here.

HERE.

Frightened again now. Worried again now. Because what if?

I mean, there are so many what ifs... which would be an ok thing if it were not for the fact that most of those 'if' statements seem closer to 'when' statements.

Yes, I am doubting the good intentions and sincerity of quite a few people. I don't mean to - I know they do their best, I like them and sometimes trust them, and it's all good normally. Right now it is 4:20 and I've not had caffeine, not had penguins, not had ANYTHING but four advil and a stomach-ache. *sighs*

Uncomplicated? Yes, actually. All of this is quite uncomplicated. The gordian knot was uncomplicated, if you were willing to take a sharp object to it. Arrasto, you're tempting me too, with all that talk. 's not fair.

*sighs again*

Then again, life is never fair.

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