The Dragon Lady, that is... I've gotten an email from her, apparently the Tygrrr is safely in the States now, but has no internet access yet. So he's passing messages through her.

And she signs herself Shan.

I wonder if HE is aware of that?

She is, for the moment, abandoned... she knows she's going to be with him, but is not there yet. She knows he cares, but I doubt he's told her as often as she would like to hear it. She's female, after all.

He says 'female' as if it is a swear word, sometimes. Other times, as if it is a prayer.

Alex... I've yet to hear him say the word. I'll be interested to see what tones he uses.

Kadin, when he says female, he often says it casually, as if it were of little consequence. I admire that. He also says it reverently... but that's when he is trying to suck up, more often than not. He's a confused little pet.

Nick... ah, my love says 'female' and uses it as an adjective indeed, it has meant a thousand things from his tongue and I'd hesitate to pick one.

Caleb... female from him is little more than a gender tag. Like Kadin, he can take it or leave it, and it rarely means anything on its own, save maybe confusing...

...but Snow, to him it is a curse.

This amuses me greatly.

I am drinking Cream Soda, generic brand, and feeling quite giddy... I'd forgotten how it feels to get so quickly high off sugar, to feel this rush from nothing more than soda pop or a piece of hard candy. It's incredible.

It's also disturbingly addictive, and it makes it nearly impossible to DO anything useful.

I am supposed to be cutting processed sugars out of my diet entirely, not a trace of them left. I don't think I will manage it, not entirely. I know me too well. I will forget, and grab a soda... or NOT forget and grab a soda anyway.

I'll eat snackfoods.

Junk food.

Candy.

I am horrible at diets, because I forget, and because I WANT to forget. *sighs*

But enough of that. Enough gloom and doom and health worries. Today is Buffy Day, and I will be happy. *grins* How could I not be? Caleb has been wonderful, I got snuggles and sleep, and I even got to see Alex a bit today. It's a GOOD day, really it is.

And I got a letter from Kadin! *happybounce* This is the cherry on the ice cream of life.