I love you.

Kadin says:

Nolas iri leint. *Grins*

Kadin says:

*Blinks muchly, very much confused at an email he just received*

Kadin says:

Rahani, does Elru know who SC is?

Lady Jax says:

Hmm... don't think so... oh. Wait. Yes, he does now. http://jaxraven.diaryland.com/charlist.html

Lady Jax says:

Why? *wants to see letter*

Kadin says:

*Hopes it all fits here...*

Kadin says:

Nope. One sec, mebbe it'll ICQ thru.

Lady Jax says:

*amused* Oh, that has NOTHING to do with SC, pet.

Kadin says:

*Whimpers*

Kadin says:

I'm confused. Where did I fail?

Lady Jax says:

*blinks* You don't actually remember?

Kadin says:

The...the ceremony text?

Kadin says:

*Lowers his head, cowed*

Lady Jax says:

I think that I'm going to do the standard 'female thing' and be upset that you even had to ask.

Kadin says:

You know I didn't mean any disrespect to it or to you, Rahani. *Sighs*

Lady Jax says:

*shrugs* Meant or not.

Kadin says:

*Sighs*

Kadin says:

Gods, I....is there any way I can make up for it?

Lady Jax says:

*shakes her head* Not at this point. I suggest we talk about something else. Quickly.

Kadin says:

*Nods* P- saw the kitten the other day.

Lady Jax says:

How did she react?

Kadin says:

She was very much not thrilled, but she dealt with it.

Lady Jax says:

*highly amused* Dealt with it how?

Kadin says:

By her own words, she'd be "lying through my teeth" if she said that she didn't enjoy being petted. DOING the petting, however...she refused to comment

Lady Jax says:

*blinks* Good god, it bothered her to PET him/you?

Kadin says:

So it would seem. The fact that I was on the flor with my head on her lap might have had something to do with it, though.

Lady Jax says:

*considers this* Well, where did she expect you to be?

Kadin says:

I don't know. I think it just bothers her to see my submissive side so clearly.

Lady Jax says:

*snickers* Give her a taste of Faceless, that'll shock her back into reality.

Kadin says:

I've been doing my level best to keep her from seeing him at all.

Kadin says:

Kaine is...well, Kaine. He hasn't come out near her.

Lady Jax says:

*shakes her head* Let Faceless see HER... let him see what easy prey she'd be for him. And please tell him (as in RIGHT NOW) that I said that.

Kadin says:

*Whimpers*

Lady Jax says:

*smirks*

Kadin says:

*Nods and sighs* He's seen it himself, but like I said, I've done my level best to keep them apart.

Lady Jax says:

*very VERY carefully stops talking for a moment, knowing full well what she'd say if she doesn't keep her mouth closed right about now... and why she'd say it, which is why she is shutting up*

Kadin says:

Rahani?

Lady Jax says:

Hm?

Kadin says:

I love you, Mistress.

Lady Jax says:

*snickers*

Kadin says:

*Mews, looking up at you worriedly*

Lady Jax says:

You really have no clue, do you? *sighs*

Kadin says:

No, Rahani, I understand.

Kadin says:

But I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to make it better.

Kadin says:

I feel so helpless, and not in a good way.

Lady Jax says:

I've noticed.

Kadin says:

I KNOW I messed up. I know it hurt you. I also know I didn't mean to. I was just...*sighs*

Kadin says:

I hate hurting you. I hate messing up.

Lady Jax says:

Just careless? Thoughtless? Foolish?

Lady Jax says:

Pick one... or use 'em all, they all fit.

Kadin says:

All of the above, Rahani.

Lady Jax says:

*growls softly at herself* Keep Faceless away from Pam. And don't listen to me if I tell you otherwise, ever. Particularly right now.

Kadin says:

*Nods* I promise you, Rahani.

Kadin says:

*Blinks in astonishment as the implications hit him*

Kadin says:

Oh, God...

Lady Jax says:

*curious* What?

Kadin says:

You...you're angry enough to be considering sending me away forever?

Lady Jax says:

*wonders how you pulled that out of a simple command... and how, if you know her so well, you could mess up so badly*

Kadin says:

*Lowers his head again*

Kadin says:

G..getting Faceless, essentially me, involved with someone else....

Kadin says:

Gods.

Lady Jax says:

*curls up, quiet*

Kadin says:

Please, please tell me I'm wrong.

Kadin says:

Please don't let one careless moment wipe out an entire year, a whole lifetime.

Lady Jax says:

*sighs, pulling you over to her roughly, her hand in your hair, pinning you down beside her... not holding you close, not petting, merely keeping you within arm's reach*

Kadin says:

Mistress...

Kadin says:

Please, gods, Please. I love you. I always will love you.

Kadin says:

I miss you so much...Gods above, please, I don't want to be sent away from you.

Kadin says:

I want to belong to you forever.

Lady Jax says:

*her other hand presses against your lips, silencing you* Hush. Or find better words. Or something, ANYTHING, but prattling on about love. Rahani might listen, Raven too... but they're curled up, not talking right now.

Lady Jax says:

And ~I~ don't want to hear it.

Kadin says:

*Sighs*

Kadin says:

Please, I beg you to punish me. To do something, give me some way to redeem myself in your eyes. All of you.

Lady Jax says:

*shakes her head* Damned if you deserve it, slut. You can keep your misery.

Kadin says:

Tis'tai, daya.

Lady Jax says:

*paces, kicking you into a corner out of the way*