Why I'm Furious
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Lady Jax says:I love you. Kadin says: Nolas iri leint. *Grins* Kadin says: *Blinks muchly, very much confused at an email he just received* Kadin says: Rahani, does Elru know who SC is? Lady Jax says: Hmm... don't think so... oh. Wait. Yes, he does now. http://jaxraven.diaryland.com/charlist.html Lady Jax says: Why? *wants to see letter* Kadin says: *Hopes it all fits here...* Kadin says: Nope. One sec, mebbe it'll ICQ thru. Lady Jax says: *amused* Oh, that has NOTHING to do with SC, pet. Kadin says: *Whimpers* Kadin says: I'm confused. Where did I fail? Lady Jax says: *blinks* You don't actually remember? Kadin says: The...the ceremony text? Kadin says: *Lowers his head, cowed* Lady Jax says: I think that I'm going to do the standard 'female thing' and be upset that you even had to ask. Kadin says: You know I didn't mean any disrespect to it or to you, Rahani. *Sighs* Lady Jax says: *shrugs* Meant or not. Kadin says: *Sighs* Kadin says: Gods, I....is there any way I can make up for it? Lady Jax says: *shakes her head* Not at this point. I suggest we talk about something else. Quickly. Kadin says: *Nods* P- saw the kitten the other day. Lady Jax says: How did she react? Kadin says: She was very much not thrilled, but she dealt with it. Lady Jax says: *highly amused* Dealt with it how? Kadin says: By her own words, she'd be "lying through my teeth" if she said that she didn't enjoy being petted. DOING the petting, however...she refused to comment Lady Jax says: *blinks* Good god, it bothered her to PET him/you? Kadin says: So it would seem. The fact that I was on the flor with my head on her lap might have had something to do with it, though. Lady Jax says: *considers this* Well, where did she expect you to be? Kadin says: I don't know. I think it just bothers her to see my submissive side so clearly. Lady Jax says: *snickers* Give her a taste of Faceless, that'll shock her back into reality. Kadin says: I've been doing my level best to keep her from seeing him at all. Kadin says: Kaine is...well, Kaine. He hasn't come out near her. Lady Jax says: *shakes her head* Let Faceless see HER... let him see what easy prey she'd be for him. And please tell him (as in RIGHT NOW) that I said that. Kadin says: *Whimpers* Lady Jax says: *smirks* Kadin says: *Nods and sighs* He's seen it himself, but like I said, I've done my level best to keep them apart. Lady Jax says: *very VERY carefully stops talking for a moment, knowing full well what she'd say if she doesn't keep her mouth closed right about now... and why she'd say it, which is why she is shutting up* Kadin says: Rahani? Lady Jax says: Hm? Kadin says: I love you, Mistress. Lady Jax says: *snickers* Kadin says: *Mews, looking up at you worriedly* Lady Jax says: You really have no clue, do you? *sighs* Kadin says: No, Rahani, I understand. Kadin says: But I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to make it better. Kadin says: I feel so helpless, and not in a good way. Lady Jax says: I've noticed. Kadin says: I KNOW I messed up. I know it hurt you. I also know I didn't mean to. I was just...*sighs* Kadin says: I hate hurting you. I hate messing up. Lady Jax says: Just careless? Thoughtless? Foolish? Lady Jax says: Pick one... or use 'em all, they all fit. Kadin says: All of the above, Rahani. Lady Jax says: *growls softly at herself* Keep Faceless away from Pam. And don't listen to me if I tell you otherwise, ever. Particularly right now. Kadin says: *Nods* I promise you, Rahani. Kadin says: *Blinks in astonishment as the implications hit him* Kadin says: Oh, God... Lady Jax says: *curious* What? Kadin says: You...you're angry enough to be considering sending me away forever? Lady Jax says: *wonders how you pulled that out of a simple command... and how, if you know her so well, you could mess up so badly* Kadin says: *Lowers his head again* Kadin says: G..getting Faceless, essentially me, involved with someone else.... Kadin says: Gods. Lady Jax says: *curls up, quiet* Kadin says: Please, please tell me I'm wrong. Kadin says: Please don't let one careless moment wipe out an entire year, a whole lifetime. Lady Jax says: *sighs, pulling you over to her roughly, her hand in your hair, pinning you down beside her... not holding you close, not petting, merely keeping you within arm's reach* Kadin says: Mistress... Kadin says: Please, gods, Please. I love you. I always will love you. Kadin says: I miss you so much...Gods above, please, I don't want to be sent away from you. Kadin says: I want to belong to you forever. Lady Jax says: *her other hand presses against your lips, silencing you* Hush. Or find better words. Or something, ANYTHING, but prattling on about love. Rahani might listen, Raven too... but they're curled up, not talking right now. Lady Jax says: And ~I~ don't want to hear it. Kadin says: *Sighs* Kadin says: Please, I beg you to punish me. To do something, give me some way to redeem myself in your eyes. All of you. Lady Jax says: *shakes her head* Damned if you deserve it, slut. You can keep your misery. Kadin says: Tis'tai, daya. Lady Jax says: *paces, kicking you into a corner out of the way*
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