..it's not a habit
it's cool
I feel alive
if you don't have it
you're on
the other side
I'm not an addict
baby that's a lie...

Cruelty.

Pain Management tonight at 6:00. Allergy testing tomorrow afternoon. An ache in my gut that sings of too many pills, not enough food, and distance, so much distance.

I miss my boys...

...I miss my playmates...

...I miss my friends...

...and right now, I miss Caleb a LOT. I want to just go curl up with him. Vanilla curlings. Snuggles. Sleepy jokes. Mushy stuff.

Want that.

Want to rest.

Want to sleep.

Want this to all be over, somehow.

I hated the human race, yesterday. Today I just hate myself.