Because It Is A Good Knight
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Leonard Cohen......I'm listening to "Closing Time", one of many of his songs that hits me just there... I've emails to write. Things to say, to do... I've a life to live. "Can't say much has happened since... I swear it happened just like this, a sigh, a cry, a hungry kiss, the gates of love they budged an inch..." And I'm dreaming again. Thinking of hundreds of might-have-beens... wondering what's going to happen next. Wondering where my life is going. "Declaring that your body's really, really, really..." "Looks like freedom but it feels like death, something in between I guess..." I'm missing Kadin quite a bit right now. Thinking about Alex, the Al-X one, wondering if he's going to write... it makes me miss my boy even more. Makes me think a lot about why I appreciate kitten, why I treasure Nick, why I am head-over-heels for Caleb and what it is I see in Alex... I love my boys. I seem to have started including Dai in that. He... gods. He's wonderful. *wry grin* I've only known him what, a few months? And already I'm head over heels for him as well. Four now. But then, he's far away and odds are good he'll have his own life, I'm a distraction and I don't know for how long... I hope for a long time. I miss him. Didn't get to talk to him today. Funny... even a day goes by without talking with him and I feel... just that little bit more hollow. 's like not talking to Kadin, or Nick... or Caleb... gods, I can't IMAGINE going a full day without talking to Caleb in some way, it seems nightmareish to even consider it. *shudders* Winamp is playing happy music for me, things I can bop to, things that leave me smiling... which is well and good, I just finished watching "A Knight's Tale" and oooh.... pretty pretty pretty people. *grins* Very wicked, most of 'em. I want to be the blacksmith. I want to fuck the villain. I want to see the prettyboy hero in a collar and in tears. I want... ...eh, but that's nothing new. When do I not want something? *hugs her boys, hugs her friends, hugs the universe, and pads off to play Chrono Trigger for a while, loosing herself in the joys of silly video-game RPG* "You could hear it on the AM Radio... you could hear the music on the AM Radio..."
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