Why am I upset? I don't really have ny reason to be, do I? It's not like he promised... it's not like any of them promised. Really.

She's the only one for me,
she's got everything I need
Turn my back and run away
She's the only one for me,
she's got everything I need
Turn my back and run away

Why does it matter? It's not like any of them are supposed to be my universe, my sun and moon and starlit sky and all that, right? I'm supposed to have a bit of safe distance. I'm not supposed to be upset. After all, goddess knows I've ignored enough people in my time, it's only fair I have a taste of it, purpose or otherwise aside.

Now's not the time to go
I feel the morning afterglow
and it feels so very strange
It's very, very frightening
I realise what's happening
Could it be I'd fall in love

So if it's good for me, if it's ok, why does it hurt? Why am I aching and angry and worried? I feel... gods. I feel as if someone has wrapped me in cotton batting, put me behind smoked glass, then told me to experience the world... it's all muted and stifling.

She's the only one for me,
she's got everything I need
Turn my back and run away
She's the only one for me,
she's got everything I need
Turn my back and run away

Part of it is the horrible fear that maybe this is the point where the whole house-of-cards that is my life collapses. I know it's going to happen sooner or later... what if it's now? What if it's today?

She's the only one for me and she's got everything I need
Turn my back and run away
She's the only one for me and she's got everything I need
Turn my back and run away>

...what if there's no more love, not from them, not from me, not ever?

Turn my back and run away...