Anyway.

*dances* I'm all hooked on "Die Another Day", the Madonna song for the movie by the same name, and am now playing it on repeat while I debate what to have for breakfast and whether or not I'm actually feeling bad enough to go to the hospital.

Agonizing kidney and bladder pain - it COULD just be a stone passing, but it could also be one too big to pass and/or an infection, and if I don't at least get it checked out I'm gonna be worrying for a while, so I should go get that taken care of BEFORE the party. Hey, maybe they won't drug me this time.

I�m gonna break the cycle
I�m gonna shake up the system
I�m gonna destroy my ego
I�m gonna close my body now

Yeah. *poing* I am an oddly happy Raven. Part of that is that I know tomorrow night I'll have some time with my kitten... retraining, using... much fun. Part of that is said kitten's recent entry in his slave register weblog that left me damn near breathless, and giddy as fuck.

Part of it... part of it is the boy who has thoroughly amused me this morning already, before he even came online. He sent me a copy of a conversation between himself and fuckwit, and let me tell you, the things he did to that idiot's head... *purrs QUITE loudly* ...seeing so much in him, seeing so much OF him, and all of it's delicious.

Part of it is simply that Caleb found a functional webcam program. *GRIN* Want to take advantage of that tomorrow too. Maybe tonight as well.

"Daddy" by Custom is proving quite amusing now. Custom in general is quite amusing music. I need to go download more.

*dances some more*

I want to have FUN.

There's a naked slaveboy asleep on the webcam, a dressed and awake slaveboy talking with me, friends on MSN, life is sparkly shiny good, and it's all this tangle... oh, and I figured out how to shut her up somewhat. Which helps too.

...I can lay my body down but I can't find my sweet release...

Rammstein now, "Du Hast", can you tell I'm a bit hyper? I wanna get laid, I wanna get violent, I wanna get...

...ooh. I dreamed last night. Pretty dream.

Dreamed I was out watching people set off bombs in the Nehalem River, soldier-types... we were having fun, dropping them into the water, then riding the blastwave... until a plane flew over.

Dropped a REAL bomb. On Nehalem.

We survived, went underwater while the blast hit, came up... most of Nehalem was toasted. Parts of Manzanita survived, parts of Wheeler. It was pretty fried up, though. A lot of other cities got hit, all over the 'States.

Kadin... showed up. Somehow. OryCon was cancelled but he made it anyway, and I was coming out of an apartment to go scrounge for food when I saw him standing there, in an oversize dirty black trench coat, jeans, and the Furcadia t-shirt... I almost started crying, I was so happy he'd survived. Melfort had been bombed too, but apparently he was already out of it when it happened.

...and it all breaks down, first rehearsal...

Hey, Alex, I miss you.

And damn, but I want to break someone right now. *amused* No, not one of my boys... they've pleased me FAR too well in the last 24 hours, even if Faceless is being a bit of a prick... Incidentally, if I ever get ahold of a genie, I will have quite a bit of fun locking away Kaine, Kadin, and my kitten... leaving him as the ONLY one out... then breaking him, when he can't hide behind my pets.

Gods, I would LOVE that... seeing those dark, angry eyes staring up at me, a gag locked in his mouth, my hand in his hair, lifting him up... forcing him to look at himself in a mirror, to see himself shamed, humbled... teaching him that he can and will fear, that he can and will submit... I don't know if he realizes just how entrancing I find unwilling prey. Maybe he does... maybe, this is part of Kadin's 'plan'... part of his own nice little set of bait. Or maybe Faceless is just a prick.

Either way... I look forward to finding a more... realistic... way to break him. He's just too tempting not to Hunt. And it wouldn't be any fun to do it with stealth... I don't want to sneak this on him, I don't want to trick him. I want to BREAK him. I want to find something he values enough to offer himself willingly. I want to see him drop to his knees of his own free *snicker* will.

Yeah, I'm as greedy as his girl is, in my own special way.

I think I'll post this. I need to get going soon.