Tired... but I know if I lay down and manage to sleep, then someone comes in, it'll wake me and I won't get back to sleep. So I have to wait.

I would have sworn he said that he'd be in after he finished his cup of tea. I could be wrong though - I mishear things at times. And certainly he has the right to do whatever he wants. And goddess knows I haven't bothered to explain WHY I am still up, although I think it might do well to explain this soon. But I don't want to drag him away from somewhere that makes him happy.

I feel dizzy. My head is spinning, my stomach is spinning, my universe is spinning.

Long conversations, it feels as if there is some sort of progress, as if something is accomplished, but really, what was gained? For me - nothing. Not yet. I keep hoping - and I have more reasons to hope now, maybe - but hope isn't enough to live on, is it?

I'm very thirsty. I'm going to have to get a drink of water, the soda is upsetting my stomach even more, it's just not a good thing.

According to the computer, Torian is online. According to the computer, I have mail. According to the computer, the world is flat... all three of these statements, if issued by the computer, have the same likelyhood of being accurate. *sighs* No response and my head is pounding.

So tired. All I want to do is sleep. Too late for sex. Too late for snuggles even. My stomach wouldn't tolerate them just now, although I have hopes for a few minutes from now, after I get some water. Did I mention I was thirsty?

Drugged. And somehow, still hurting. Horrible stabbing in my side that never quite seems to go away.

I don't think I like this particular few minutes' worth of tonight... the rest of it's been fine, but right NOW, I feel like shit. I hope it goes away soon. I really do. Because this is a lousy start for Beltane.