I'm giving in to you

First off, a bit of news: Spike is leaving. Moving to Alaska. He will be leaving before the 20th of next month - less than a month away, likely only a couple weeks from now. He'll be back through eventually to pick up the rest of his stuff, to say hello... but... yeah. He's leaving.

I went out to Beaverton tonight, hung out at Grr-house... there was a turkey dinner, and conversation, and alcohol, and I am amazed I made it home. Drinking again. I'm an addict. Not to anything specific... no, I rather think I'm addicted to being addicted. I need to need, I want to want.

Odd waves of heat pouring off of everything... normally I don't pay much attention to air currents but right now I am so hypersensative that I can't even breathe but I feel the movement of every air molecule that my breath pushes out of the way. This is just ridiculous. I move my hand and it almost hurts, pushing against nothing. Weird.

Current plans include sitting down once I wake up in the morning and the hangover has worn off and thinking about the past 48 hours or so. There's a new knifeblade on my alter, I keep eyeing the mailbox, I need to write to quite a few people at this point... I need to upload the latest changes to Irene Radford's site, upload the latest test graphics for BF to take a look at, upload my new layout if I ever get it finished...

...incidentally, if anyone out there can track down some pictures of vicodin, or vicodin bottles, or oxycodone, or anything opiate-related, I'd appreciate it. I'm having trouble finishing my layout, I can't find the right graphics somehow, it just keeps looking too contrived.

Meh.

I'm listening to an Era song called "Avatar" that I strongly recommend - it's the same one I was listening to a few days ago. Yes, when I wrote the entry wherein everything in the universe was beautiful.

I am now blaming a large chunk of it on the music. This song would make anyone see angels.

Anyway, I have email to check and diaries to catch up on and I really need some sleep, so I'm going to draw this to a close. This weekend we have BTL (go googling for "better than life roleplay portland" or something similar and you'll find our website) and I need to be rested for that.