You were told exactly how to get that permission.

When you awake from a sleep you did not earn, you are allowed to talk to Nreshan and to post in your journal. NOTHING more.

This IS a lesson, boy; a part of your training, one that - as you yourself have shown by talking once without permission after my order - you are sorely in need of learning. Too proud to beg properly? Too annoyed that your fate was, at that moment, in other hands than mine, even though I was the one guiding, watching? Too drowsy to think straight? Whatever the reason, you disobeyed both a recently-given order and a standing order.

I will make this very, very clear so that even you will understand:

You will not speak to me, or with me, without Nreshan's permission. You will apologise to me and to Nreshan for attempting to talk to me online without permission. You will update once.

When you have earned - because now, belive me, it will be EARNED rather than granted - the chance to speak with me, you can ask for explanations.

Your disobedience and lack of effort displease me, pet. I trust you will do better today.