Getting An Email
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I got a letter from Kadin.He's... not doing too well. He's miserable there. He wants to be here. And I want him here. It's gotten to the point where I can't get through a single day without thinking of him, missing him, wanting him. I talk about him a lot - I try not to but I can't help it. I miss him. He's my kitten. My boy. My treasure. My prize. He's the very center of my hungers... he satisfies them. Yes... gods, yes, I love Caleb and Alex and Nick (who I am worried about - I've not heard anything, I don't have an address to write to, I hope he's ok...). I love them. I love Kadin too. And right now Nick is at least somewhere that in theory is supposed to take care of him. Alex is in Oxford with a good job and a reasonably good life. Caleb is here, I can hold him and protect him. Not Kadin. He's too far away... I haven't talked to him in so long. Tonight I'm going to be offline. He's going to call - I'm not quite sure when. But for a lage chunk of time I'll be offline, and I will warn you now, if you call and you're not Kadin, you WILL get hung up on. I want to talk to my boy. I want to be sure he's ok. Everyone else I know, I've some idea of how they are doing, I know that they are... not necessarily ok, but... they are alive. They can heal. Kadin, I'm not so sure about. He's fragile. And he's priceless, a treasure beyond anything, any price, anything I was asked to pay would still be too little. *sighs* Love is not a victory march...
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