Elru. Nick. Beautiful, delicious... a thousand words aren't enough. And for a while... well, you know what I thought. That he'd given up on submission, that he was going all-dom from here on. I was wrong... so wonderfully, wonderfully wrong! I need to learn to ask.

One of my greatest flaws (yeah, I have a lot of greatest flaws. Cope.) is that I forget to ASK for what I want... I keep assuming everyone is like Vicki, and can read my mind half the time. Poor Nick can't... and I keep forgetting to just tell him what I want, to ask for it nicely, one friend to another... and then to be patient if I don't get it.

I've calmed down a LOT tonight... talking with him, just having him to nuzzle even if it's only online, helped a lot. Knowing that he is there... knowing that he really does care enough to give me what I need most... knowing that he loves me even though I'm NOT always sweet and submissive... it matters.

This is going to be a short entry. I'm almost content enough not to write at all. *grin* But hey... something for my loyal fans. And if I make it to work tomorrow... who knows?