Maybe something a bit more smug... maybe something a bit more posessive... maybe something that is nothing more than a tiny little voice in the back of my head saying "Congratulations, you figured out something was wrong and had the balls to say so." I still don't know how much of this is reasonable and how much of this is jealousy. Yeah, I know, I keep coming back to that.

There's a reason for that. I know that sometimes my mates are somewhat jealous of each other, but in general they can understand why I love, and need, and own each of them, and why I love, and need, and own the others. Each one is a treasure beyond measure, and I wouldn't be as happy and feel as safe if they were not part of my life. The point I was just about to forget and wander past (good thing my points are vicious, it jumped up and bit me) is that most of the time I've got no room to talk when it comes to making others in a relationship jealous. Because of this I rarely express what small bits of jealousy I feel. I'm jealous of Tammy. Jealous of Tom. Jealous of Pam. Jealous of Bink. *shrugs* But I go on, I know that no matter what happens, no matter who gets to spend more time around them than I do, it'll be ok. They will always come back.

This... gods, but it eats at me. When everyone else in the house is speaking what I thought was my opinion before I can even say it, when the things that bother me they say bother them before I even list them... when it's Not Just Me... that's when I start getting worried, and doing whatever I can to change things.

I'm the sort of person who near-obsessively shakes snowglobes, who likes the mess on her floor because it looks different every day, who wanders off to flirt with random people just 'cause I haven't seen them in a while, or don't know them. Yes, I know perfectly well that this is not necessarily a good trait, but apparently when I was being put together someone poured a few too many freebie points into it. *blinks* Ok, must get head out of VtM mode. *blinks again*

Oooh, and a perk, a perk! I just got Cal's email giving me links to his pictures from e3 and I'm going to see if any of them are nifty, and pass them along. I have enough storage space, really I do...

*goes through them*

Here... yes, he really does wear sunglasses when it's that dark. This one I'm not even sure I want to know about. And this just makes me envious. *grin*