So anyway, now I have this perfect vision of the finished product, combining a bit of my old graphics style, a bit of the new metallics, aiming for bright shiny chrome and silver, not antique... and a bit of the look I managed in the bard's journal.

This is good.

I also finished up graphics for another diary, but I'm not going to link to it 'cos I don't think the owner wants it 100% public yet. But I am proud of the graphics anyway, they are really sharp silver and purple gems, black lettering with purple outlines, and a bit of playing around with javascript in the layout. *grins*

Makes me wish I could submit it for review. It really did turn out nicely.

And that is fitting. *grin* I did it for someone nice.

Anyway... other news. Is there other news? I was sure there was some... oh, yeah. OHP is evil. Then again, that's not news, that just me stating the obvious again, perhaps because I've had almost NO sleep and eaten nothing but a handful of soda crackers, a glass of absinthe and brandy and honey, a cola, and a couple donut holes in... hm. 30+ hours, now.

My body is hungry.

I, on the other hand, am not.

I know I should eat, my sugar level will go to hell and back if I don't, it's going to be hard enough coping already... but... eating just seems so sordid right now.

Messy.

Not worth bothering with.

Which worries me, 'cos much as I bitch about my weight and need to diet or exercise, I do NOT want to be anorexic, nor do I want to loose weight at my body's expense.

One of the few things that I am actually comfortable about to a certain extent is my weight. I'm not PROUD of it, I would like to drop about three pants sizes and maybe one bra size, and I hate my upper arms, my thighs, and my butt.

However, realistically, I'm not UGLY, my body is decently proportioned if a bit large, and if I were an african tribeswoman I would be counted beautiful. *wry grin*

Seriously, loosing weight for me is not yet worth the hassle and hell that it takes to put it off... either my body will take it off on its own, or it won't.

Currently, it seems to be doing it on its own... and I guess that's ok.

I think I will stop worrying about eating... I'll eat when I'm hungry, and not until then. *grins* I've survived three-day fasts on a regular basis before, I can handle another one. Particularly if I can talk myself into eating a shake or two, and if I keep myself hydrated... then it can't be bad for me.