Live - Lightning Crashes
It reminds me of Angel, usually... it hurts a bit, but in a comforting way, you know?

Meatloaf - Good Girls Go To Heaven
This is so what I keep hoping and praying... I'm a Bad Girl, you know. Or at least I want to believe I am.

EMF - Unbelievable
I want to wake up. I want this to stop seeming so damned perfect. I want to stop believing, because I KNOW it's too good to be true.

Aristocats - Everybody Wants To Be A Cat
Envy. SHEER ENVY. And I can't seem to turn it off.

Natalie Imbruglia - Another Obsession
It is, right? Just one more thing, it's the same as it always is, I don't need to think about this being different or better or anything else, right?

Meridith Brooks - What Would Happen
I know what would happen. I am beginning to think it was a mistake, because I get too damned involved. I need to find my distance again... not be pushed away, that would hurt and only make it worse... I need to find this inside, or find a good reason NOT to go looking for it.

...you're unbelievable...

Falco - Puttin' On The Ritz
I want to be out and about, strutting, savoring, showing off, enjoying this... instead, I'm sitting here struggling with emotion. I don't think much of that as a lifestyle, I really don't.

Heather Alexander - Brannigan's Special Ale
I so want to get drunk right now. RIGHT NOW, yes. This second. *grins*

Heather Alexander - Wolfen One
It hurts... it aches, listening to this, but I'm doing it right now regardless, trying to fill my mind with thoughts that either comfort or hurt enough to drive me away from the cliff-edge I am headed toward.

Bon Jovi - You Give Love A Bad Name
How the hell am I supposed to know where 'too far' is, or how much is 'too much'? I don't think there is a way... but there is a simple solution. I'll love who I love, when I love them, as much as I love them, without hesitation or guilt or shame.

the things... you say...
...you're unbelievable...

So. No shame. No guilt. No doubt. No hesitation. Life is too damned short for any of those.

It doesn't matter if it's unbalanced right now, because I've my boys, they balance me. *smiles softly* Arrasto is marked, Kadin is collared, Caleb wears my ring... and I... I am happy.

And - right now - brave.

I can handle this life, I think.